Yesterday, my Little turned one month!
I honestly can’t believe it–mostly because I can’t believe she actually came out of me–but also because it seriously feels like we JUST came home from the hospital. The days have kind of all mashed together, with Huff the Hubs and I trudging along like some zombies from The Walking Dead. Its been amazing, don’t get me wrong, but its also been exhausting.
In my first four weeks of being a parent, I’ve already learned so much. Such as:
1. Always take a change of clothes…and not just for the kid.
Today while out with my father-in-law for his birthday lunch, I had to feed Hermione. As I was nursing, I heard her rip one of her oh-so-manly farts. This one, however, was not just air. How did I know? I suddenly felt something warm on my lap. Yes, my sweet little angel had a blowout…all over Mommy. Her clothes, however? Fresh as a daisy.
2. Newborn clothes fit for like a week.
I got some ADORABLE newborn clothes for Hermione at my baby shower. I’m talkin’ she-could-be-a-baby-model-in-those-clothes-cute. Since I hadn’t officially been cleared to drive and our pediatrician said to keep the baby out of the public for a month, we haven’t had need to go anywhere. Ergo, the cute outfits haven’t been used. Its been sleepers and swaddling for this kid. Now that she’s a month old, many of her outfits are too snug (much like Mommy’s jeans).
3. You learn to survive on not much sleep at night.
The old adage “sleep when the baby sleeps” irritates many mothers. It is annoying to hear that at times because you can’t just magically turn your mind off and instantly go to sleep. I read somewhere that if you want to imagine what its like inside the mind of a woman, think about opening 100 internet windows and trying to read all the information at once. Which, in my case, is totally spot-on. BUT, since I haven’t been sleeping much at night, I’m learning to hit the couch when Hermione is asleep. Even if I don’t actually sleep, I need to not do anything. Which leads me to…
4. Chores can wait.
I didn’t think I was going to be the type of person to let the dishes pile up in the sink, the laundry go unwashed, or the carpet go unvaccumed even though I had a Little to care for. Before the baby came, I had this notion that I would keep the house to be clean so I wouldn’t go crazy at the mess and so Huff the Hubs wouldn’t come home to a pig sty. Now that I’m in the thick of it… my mind has been changed. Dishes in the sink? Eh, I’ll eat off a paper towel. No clean undies? Turn ’em inside out!
5. You learn what love is.
When my nephews and niece were born, I was so in love with those kids. I never knew I could love someone so much; and I didn’t even give birth to them! And now that I have my own little girl, I’m amazed at how much I love her. I was scared that I wasn’t bonding with her at first; I didn’t have that “oh-I’m-so-in-love-with-this-tiny-person” feeling the instant the doctor put her on my chest (I was a little doped up at the time). And I felt so guilty about that! But after talking to some moms and reading some blog posts and forums, I realized I wasn’t alone. I did realize, however, that I had truly bonded with her a few days ago. She was really fussy and Huff the Hubs took her out of the bassinet by our bed and put her in her swing in the living room. When he came back to bed I said, “Bring her back! I miss her!” It was as though a piece of me was in the other room and I didn’t feel whole. Its the strangest, most difficult to explain, most amazing thing ever. And to see Huff the Hubs hold her and tell her how much he loves her? Well… that makes me love him even that much more.