Y’all, I don’t know if its the pregnancy hormones or what, but I have been feeling extreme Mommy Guilt lately. I’ve been so tired lately that a lot of the responsibilities have been shifted to Huff the Hubs. I’ve been napping A LOT (when I can, that is) and missing out on fun little moments with my little family. I feel like such a slug. But I’m also so exhausted from my normal duties (work, taking care of a house that is still full of boxes) as well as you know, growing a human, that I get wore out FAST.
I know that now that I’m in the second trimester, I should get my energy back, but I’m starting to think I’m going to feel this way for a while.
I feel guilty that I can’t do as much as I once could. I feel guilty that we aren’t doing more stuff with Huff the Tot while she’s still our “Only”. I feel guilty that I haven’t unpacked the house, hung stuff on the walls, got the nursery ready, or spent more quality time with Huff the Hubs.
I feel guilty that I have to work. I feel guilty when I drop my kid off at the sitter’s (even though the sitter is my aunt and grandmother). I feel guilty that I’m not more in touch with my friends and their lives.
I feel guilty that I forget to take my prenatal vitamin some nights and my baby will suffer because s/he isn’t getting enough nutrients. I feel guilty that I’m not working out as much as I used to.
Will this guilt ever end?!
I really hope it does. Because IT. IS. EXHAUSTING.