This weekend was super busy and crazy-stressful. I was trying to get stuff done around the house and for Christmas; Huff the Hubs was doing the same. Huff the Tot was being crazy–most likely because she saw that Momma and Daddy were stressed out and thought, “Hmm, how can I make them lose ALL of their hair?”
I went to bed Saturday night hoping Sunday would be better. I ended up waking up around 4:30 a.m. and couldn’t go back to sleep. The rest of the day was pretty harried as well and finally, at 4:00 p.m., I told HtH, “I need a break from Hermione. And you. And this house.”
So I picked up my mom and we did a little shopping. I was only gone for about an hour, but it was blissful. I felt sort of bad, leaving HtH alone with Huff the Tot, but I knew I needed a break. Then, when I got home, my little Gryffindor greeted me at the door with a big bear hug around my knees.
“Momma!” she cried, and smiled wide.
“Hi baby,” I said, giving her a squeeze.
Then she said three words that made my heart melt and also made me feel like the worst mother in the world:
“I missed you!”
Yeah… I was pretty inconsolable.
I felt awful! This little girl missed me and just an hour and a half earlier, I was desperate for a break. I know I need to take time out for myself because I can’t be a good mom if I’m stressed out all the time, but still…In that moment (and still now) I felt so guilty.
Have you ever felt like that? How do you cope? Share in the comments below!